Hi, I’m Regan. This is me.

For reasons I hope to get into eventually on here, I’ve spent majority of it fixated on the same questions: “why am I here?”, “what is the point?” and the age old “who am I?”. I always had this underlying sense of feeling like I didn’t have a place, or a voice, or even a sense of self.

But there was one thing I always identified with — Passion. If I knew anything, I knew that when I cared about something (and I cared about a lot of things), it was everything. And even though this all-encompassing feeling was the one thing that I felt was mine, it was also the thing that held me back from getting the answers to those 3 questions. Not because it wasn’t real, but because instead of allowing it to connect me to the world and people around me, I used it to escape. I would get so invested that I would lose touch with the reality of those things. I would idealize, and glorify and feel so much that when I came back down from my emotional high I would feel lost and disappointed. And because of this, I started looking at my passion as a curse. I’m still guilty of this a lot of the time, but I also am now starting to realize a few things:

• Truly embracing my passion is understanding that these amazing things are amazing independent from how much I love them. They are not what my mind makes them out to be- they just are. 
• Spending my life fixating on those 3 questions, trying to map out the answers for myself by romanticizing real things is exactly the thing that is holding me back from finding my place, my voice and my sense of self.
• My passion really does make me who I am, but instead of it becoming a barrier between me and the world, it has the power to keep me grounded. It isn’t meant to make me feel lost and disappointed. It should make me feel alive and present. It is what connects me to the people I love, the things that move me, the universe and above everything– myself.

My passion is a passion for life. It’s my joie de vivre, and by harnessing it, even though those questions don’t seem so important, I’m learning that it holds the answers. I’m starting to see that getting the most of life is about simultaneously absorbing and emitting as much good as you can– and there’s a lot of good to go around.

That’s why I’m starting this blog. To absorb and emit my passion. To share my joie de vivre, which has always been there, but has only recently been truly discovered.

So… Hi, I’m Regan. This is me. My life, my passion, my joie de vivre.  Absorb and emit what you wish ❤